Update on Jaya

We had Jaya's mini outpatient procedure this morning, we had to be there at 7:15am to get all checked in, talk to 3 different nurses, anesthesia and then the doc.....Jaya did pretty well - she was calm and not really understanding what was going on, which was fine with us. But then the resident anesthesia came to talk to us and wanted to explain to Jaya what was happening. So it all began, the doc was telling her how I would go back in the room with her and then they would give her a mask that would make her laugh and then I would leave....and that was the deal breaker! Jaya immediately went from looking and listening to panic and crying!!!! So then they said they could try to give her a sedative to help when I took her back there, which by the way I was truely shocked about. I have NEVER been able to go into the OR with her, but here they do things differently, and I was able to walk her in, granted I had to wear the oh so fancy yellow isolation gown and a blue cap - boy was I hot!! But anyways, so we said yes to the sedative but then about 30 sec after she took it they were ready for her, it didn't even have time to kick in!!
So I got all geared up and carried her into the OR, where we had a whole team of people waiting for us; I sat in a chair and they tried to give her the mask, but it was a no go - so we tried again, but this time I had to set her on the OR table and hold her then they grabed her from behind and put the mask on.
I guess I always think - I will be okay and I can handle this for her, but I am SOOO wrong about that! When she started screaming the tears were flowing - from me! The mask did it's job and she was out, they told me I could lean in and "kiss her goodbye" and then they walked me back to my room.....where I cried some more of course!
Well about 45 min went by and the Dr came in. I think we both expected to either hear that all went well and he thinks she will be fine or that we may want to consider the MACE operation. But we got a shock, and I think that is the worst, when you are not prepared AT ALL.....he said that he thinks there may need to be a surgery to redo her bottom. Yes - we are back to the beginning again - he has ordered an MRI to finalize things, but I think eventually that is going to happen!
We finally got to see Jaya and I hope you other parents don't ever have to see your babies come out of anesthesia, but if you have you will fully understand what I am going to say - it is HILARIOUS!!! It was like watching a drunk person, she was slurring words for a while and couldn't walk straight - good humor for a crummy day!
We are home now - she is doing wonderfully and just knows she got an IV and the doctors gave her a new beanie baby!
I know it's not something horrible and she will be fine, but I have had such a hard time with this today, I guess the feeling of helplessness, the feeling of letting her down - cause we did this already....not too sure, but just down about it all! If anyone is reading this and thinking that I am posting too much up here, it is also to help me! We will keep you all posted on everything!